Actively noticing what makes u feel happy and content as opposed to simply numb and relaxed is a rather odd deal.. I started on the 100 happy days challenge, wondering what on earth would i put in it.. Day1 began because i was organising my bookshelf, and suddenly lining up my battered old stuffed toys in front of the books brought up memories of where all the books came from and what the toys mean to me.. That's when i decided to post a picture if the stuffed toys, and label it Day 1 of the 100 days when i would consciously try to be happy at some point in the day.
How does it work anyway? Is the time i spent cuddling the bear that's been banishing my blues since i was 3 the only time i was happy in that 24 hour period?? Or is it meant for one to scrutinise each second of the day to figure out when you were 'happy' and not merely flowing with the river of your existence?
I'm lounging in the sun in my garden after what feels like forever being cold and not having time to just soak up the sun.. Am i happy? Or am i just content in the 'snail is on the grass and god in heaven and all is right in this world' way where u can just switch off and sink into a daze... Or doze..
I cant seem to switch off the question though.. Even as my body is relaxing into a slouch and my frozen toes are warming up, i cant stop wondering if this qualifies for the day's 'moment of happiness"..
Yesterday's 'moment' was also something rather strikingly 'happy'.. Seeing my neice's naughty face and my grandfather's happy laughter at the picture gave me that textbook perfect bone deep feeling of being Happy. Today i find myself wondering what i will classify as my happy moment.. This challenge isn't really meant for showing other people what great things are happening to you, its about finding the rays of sunshine in your life for yourself, or so says the websites which hosts the game..
Have i too fallen into the trap of counting how many people have 'Liked' or commented on whatever my happy post of the day is to justify looking for the moments? If i am constantly analysing whether something qualifies for the 'happy moment', am i truly being happy in that moment???
How does it work anyway? Is the time i spent cuddling the bear that's been banishing my blues since i was 3 the only time i was happy in that 24 hour period?? Or is it meant for one to scrutinise each second of the day to figure out when you were 'happy' and not merely flowing with the river of your existence?
I'm lounging in the sun in my garden after what feels like forever being cold and not having time to just soak up the sun.. Am i happy? Or am i just content in the 'snail is on the grass and god in heaven and all is right in this world' way where u can just switch off and sink into a daze... Or doze..
I cant seem to switch off the question though.. Even as my body is relaxing into a slouch and my frozen toes are warming up, i cant stop wondering if this qualifies for the day's 'moment of happiness"..
Yesterday's 'moment' was also something rather strikingly 'happy'.. Seeing my neice's naughty face and my grandfather's happy laughter at the picture gave me that textbook perfect bone deep feeling of being Happy. Today i find myself wondering what i will classify as my happy moment.. This challenge isn't really meant for showing other people what great things are happening to you, its about finding the rays of sunshine in your life for yourself, or so says the websites which hosts the game..
Have i too fallen into the trap of counting how many people have 'Liked' or commented on whatever my happy post of the day is to justify looking for the moments? If i am constantly analysing whether something qualifies for the 'happy moment', am i truly being happy in that moment???
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