Emily

it hurt when i moved.. the skin pulling... it even opened up again sometimes.. bled.. i tried to hide it from sam.. he would never forgive himself for giving me these scars...
i sometimes wished i could have seen his thoughts when the frenzy had subsided and he'd seen what he'd done.. not that i don't know how he felt.. still feels... how he forces himself to stay calm even when he's so disturbed that his body could phase without counscious thought..
i thought about jacob and bella.. he was so worried for her.. thought of her all the time.. his brothers could see nothing but her in his thoughts... and she was beginning to look human again.. happier... i really wished that she would forget about him... the bloodsucker... Jake needed her so...
he was the reason why these boys had changed.. but then... if they had not come.. i would not have my sam...
loving a werewolf isn't always easy...


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i'm SOOOO obsessed with the Twilight series rt now....
though i really really wished that bella would end up with Jake... i mean.. edward is incredibly hot and he loves her... but he's such a control freak.. jake lets her be herself.. he lets her face her fears and live a life she wants.. unlike edward who doesn't realise how he's pushing her till the very end...
n i love the way he says in Eclipse... "we would have been together if the world was as it is supposed to be. a world without monsters and magic"


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oh hell... i just read this leaked version of Midnight sun- twilight told through edward's point of view.. n all of a sudden.. i'm not so unhappy with edward.. dammit!!! but mind reading and poisonous fangs apart... i still think Jake's way nicer...

n i was told by a friend that bella n edward have a child in Breaking Dawn... i'm still wondering how the hell that happened since vampires aren't supposed to be able to breed like humans... thats the biggest reason rosalie and esme want to be human again... coz they have a rather strong mothering instinct that they cannot do anything about... well.. i guess i'll just have to read breaking dawn to figure it out.. maybe stephanie meyer forgot the whole birds and bees lecture she should've gotten in her teens... HOW in heaven's name does someone who'se frozen solid father a child?????????