To my childhood memories

This one's for Ati n akku...
I went to Rajghat yesterday... had a bit of time to myself coz sundays a really light day at work... n my office is almost close enuf for a walk..
had wanted to go there for years.. ati do u remember... uncle had said we'd all go there again once he was better... ive wanted all of us to go since then. relive our childhood.. when three little girls woke up at 5:30 am on holiday mornings to go to rajghat and play.. balanced on a single scooter with uncle... its weird.. neither my dad nor akku's ever went there.. or maybe i just dont remember.. the only time i remember any other adults being teher was when all three mothers came too... the dads didnt though..
Rajghat is the resting place of mahatma Gandhi.. n i was there 2 days after the Independence day.. but i wasnt there to remember the father of the nation.. i was there to remember the man wo i placed in next place.. actually same place as my own father.. the one who accepted a rather rude, violent little girl into his home and family because she was his daughter's best friend..
U know whats so weir... i dont remember us EVER actully going to see Gandhi's Samadhi there.. i remember climbing up to the top of teh hillocks and rolling down again.. n playing games like taht all morning... travelling almost 10 kms each way for the fun and games.. never seemed taht long a ride somehow.. it felt like it was taking forever to reach tehre from my office yesterday.. but the childhood memories i have seem like we got there in a jiffy.. after a delayed start from teh house as us girls bickered over wo'll sit where on the scooter.. ati won the coveted front standing place ost of the time... mostly coz she's the youngest and consequently the shortest... though that doesnt exactly apply now... she's as tall as i am.. n akku's taller. Me, the oldest of the three, am the middle one height- wise...

I climbed up the hillock.. n the day was so beautiful... cloudy and cool.. stood there for a little while.. thinking bout teh hazy memories of rolling down the hill competing against each other.. wanting to be the first one to reach the bottom..
I'd taken it as a promise from uncle that we'll all go there again as soon as he was better.. god didnt quite agree with our plans i guess... ive wanted to go there since the day uncle died.. if only as a memorial to him... all three kids go there again.. n remember how we used to play there years ago.. started crying sitting on a bench.. for the father figure who was the reason for my presence there... and for the two friends, sisters who i've barely had time to meet in the last year.. we've all grown up, gone our separate ways.. even though ati n akku are in college now and in north campus most of the day, my job's such that i havent been able to meet them... studies, activities and boyfriends have left us with precious few moments to spend so much as talking to each other...
It just feels like something's one missing from life... the closeness, the madness, the happiness of childhood are gone.. now when we meet, we talk like old ppl reminiscing bout our past, or talk of serious topics, life and college and careers and families.. we're not that old though... its just taht we've grown up a bit fast... i'm the eldest.. n i'm only 20.. but we can still talk bout watever comes to our heads.. lst time all three of us were together was more tahn a month go.. an hour snatched between college admissions for ati n office for me... we sat around discussing the future.. n giving each other relationship advice.. it was sorta strange for me to talk to ati bout HER relationship.. she's like my baby sister,... n now she's dating too.. it was usch a shock for me.. i was like.. URE TOO YOUNG TO DATE! n she's a whole year n a half older than i was when I first started "going out" with someone.. she's older than i was when i had my first kiss... n yet i freaked at the idea that some guy was with my baby sis... its weird how i get all protective bout her.. start lecturing her even though ive been thru the same situations and done worse than she has...
I sometimes wish i could go back in time..
to the barbie dolls and the dress up games..
to nightspends and midnight kitchen raids..
i miss them all so much..

This one's for you guys....

MY SACRIFICE- Creed
Hello my friend, we meet again
It's been awhile, where should we begin?
Feels like forever
Within my heart are memories
Of perfect love that you gave to me
Oh, I remember
When you are with me, I'm free
I'm careless, I believe
Above all the others we'll fly
This brings tears to my eyes
My sacrifice

We've seen our share of ups and downs
Oh how quickly life can turn around
In an instant
It feels so good to reunite
Within yourself and within your mind
Let's find peace there
When you are with me, I'm free
I'm careless, I believe
Above all the others we'll fly
This brings tears to my eyes