Friday, June 09, 2006

wrote this long ago.... dont quite know why....

a core of pain inside me
an inexplicable sadness
nameless, numerous thoughts crowd my mind
bind
memories of pain n sorrow to my heart
make me fear
cry
dont know what or why
life seems unneeded
a sudden desire to die..
to fly
far away from the maddening crowd

a whirlpool of sounds, shapes
sigths, lights, voices
assaulting by senses
trapped in a vortex of black emotions
an emptiness inside me
a space that throbs with invisible emotions
bringing me to my knees with hurtthat clouds my mind n dulls my senses..

i hear childish voices risen in quarrel
the clink of utensils, mother in her kitchen
the rustles and roars of life outside my window
still.... a void inside
that spews out emotions
words pour out
to assuage a grief...
why do i feel it???
for thoughts that surface
then dive again
wishes that come to heart but remain unprayed for......

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