hiding

sometimes you really want to take a step.. but you cant even quite explain to yourself why you don't...
murphy won't dog every step i take will he??

i need something new

just how many times is it possible to pick up and re-read a book thats been read and closed already..

closed chapters, turned pages
arrows shot and bullets fired
words spoken, moments lost

you can really never go back to some things..

history repeats itself..
the fact that the statement is true scares the bejeezus out of me...

death of romance

“Those who can’t do, teach, and those who can’t wed, Plan”..  said Jennifer Lopez in the Wedding Planner.. but what do you do when you get the most impossible people to plan for????

Since the demise of romance from my life ive taken vicarious pleasure from my friends’ love lives.. playing agony aunt, messenger and on occasion couple counsellor.. yes i know, i don’t have a life... thank you very much for noticing. But this rant isn’t so much about me as about a certain stubborn ass idiot who has been chucking all my planning to the bin...

I have a dear friend who is about to reach a milestone in his relationship.. and he’s asked me to help him with ideas for D Day.. i’ve been pulling out everything i’ve got.. and yet.. nada. 
The boy likes NOTHING! 
I mean.. every single idea i have is either too cheesy or too boring or silly or expensive or plain too much trouble...

 ive suggested everything from a simple bouquet (too cheesy) to a full blown grand meal for two at a nearby resort (too far to drive) i’m so out of ideas and out of temper! I’ve dug through memory and movies and conversations and plain logic of eliminating everything they’ve already done.. and every conversation ends with me going %^&$%&^£$%$% and him going.. “c’mon you’re my friend you have got to help me out here”

i wanna shoot him! Or tell his girlfriend that she’s dating an imbecile! 

ajeeb dastan hai yeh...

its weird how life can simply keep curving in on itself till you feel like you're caught in a never ending loop..
this year was supposed to be different..and yet it is uncannily the same.. confusion and acrimony, fights, sleepless nights, indecipherable signals, boredom and lack of direction..

but my life seems so different on the face of it..

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so here's the things i WANT to accomplish this year.

1. go for an international moot.. even if we just do the regional rounds for lack of money.
2. sleep without first needing to shut my body down with physical exhaustion.
3. go for a trip with friends
4. get my family to go for a day out without any dramas involved
5. get an article published in a legal journal.
6. stop living in the past.

things change.. things end, things begin.. what you once thought was gospel truth shows grey in the light of a new day.. where there was a void a seed sprouts..
days and months and years pass.. yet when i look in the looking glass
all i see is a little girl looking
for something thats changed

life can sometimes just BE.. when you're not really paying attention something momentous happens and all you can really do is deal with the curveball.. or accept the gift.