parties and shoots.. :)

i had the most marvellous coupla days.. wish i could put up pictures but can't coz i'm using the college computers.. home comp's effed up as usual... so here goes...

16th was a friend's birthday party... got all dressed up at N's place with another friend showing me how i had been trumped from the position of the most hyper person around.. she was so much more hyper bout her dress than i have ever been .. and i'm quoting N here!!! upshot of it was that i was ready to go about an hour before these two were done with their dresses n makeup! the three of us got to the party a whole hour later than the time we had set for ourselves.. :) but the party was on all night and it was FUN! old friends who  hadn't met in a loooong time and a lovely bonfire on the roof... yay.... and a nice gossip session once everyone else had left and it was just four girls with alcohol in them talking :)

anyway.. then i went to help abby with her photoshoot the next morning... my sister.. teh professional photographr... and she paid me for acting as her production assistant!!! it was quite a family production actually.. pico jiji's script, abby the photographer and with vrin n me playing assistants to abby.. :) the other ppl there were like.. should we call this shoot the "mathur production" :D
the studio was in this little galli in lado sarai and almost everyone got lost trying to find the way there :) half the morning was spent giving directions on teh phone and running out to the main road to receive people.. by teh end of it my legs felt like they'll fall off coz i was still wearing the high heeled boots i wore for the party

and an entertaining day it was... the models who showed up were quite a bunch... there was a girl who happened to be an LLM student at MY college.. there was this guy who had to play a roadside romeo and quite looked the part, complete with faded jeans n a wierd shirt and sparkly belt before the shot began.. we gave him a much more sober shirt n told him to lose the belt...
and there was this reallllllly cute kid.. about 4 n a half years old.. who played and ran around for hours!! by the  time his turn for the shot came.. he was tired and refused to smile for the camera.. so i stood behind abby and made faces at him to make him laugh.. but he was soooo adorable.. he even scrambled up on top of the dining table being used in the  shot.. he was supposed to steal chocolates from it so he happily clambered up while he was supposed to pretend that  he was reaching for the jar.. and then just coz we all clapped for him.. he did the whole thing over again..

and speaking of adorable.. there was the cutest little puppy on the set.. he was the studio owner's pet and we played with him all day... he's a tiny little pug named Jumbo..and he wore a cute little red coat with paw prints on it!! he kept running onto the set.. he even started running after the kid.. who thought the pup was gonna bite him and got freaked out.. i have sooo many pictures of the dog.. and the set.. wish i could put them up... vrin n i almost had a fight over who would hold the dog.. by the end of it the studio owner was like.. why dont you guys just take him with you.. i'll get another dog..

the highlight of the day however was that towards the end of the day abby and the client's rep decided that they needed another couple of younger models. and vrin and I got to play models!!!!! got makeup done and posed and preened... and managed to actually get a couple of really pretty pictures!!
so what started as a day for us to lug stuff around, manage ppl and serve food, ended with my MY FIRST SHOOT!!! and abby's now promised to shoot my portfolio coz she has to add a fashion shoot to her own portfolio!!!
YAY!

welllll... this one's a bit shallow...

just saw new moon at plaza... it was quite an experience.. a hallful of women hooting at edward and jacob.... robert pattinson and taylor lautner actualy.. they're HOT!!!!! it was catcalls, screams and drool enough to drown the whole place.. they're stunning...

and then we got into this conversation about how if someone had a good body they'd look good even with a not so good looking face... coz noorie thinks that taylor lautner doesnt have such a goodlooking face.. I on the other hand think that robert pattinson is downright weird looking from most angles.. though i'd have to concede that he has the face of an angel if seen full face.. he looks weird at angles and in profile.. though taylor is WOW from every angle...

well.. the point is.. a question...
would someone look good if they had a not so good looking face and an amazing body??? or does the whole package count??????

maybe i'm biased towards taylor.. he's Jacob.. he's pretty much EXACTLY how i pictured jake.. and i ADORE jacob.. he's like the ideal guy... but would anyone else agree with my opinion???

my opinion.... its not just the face.. its teh whole thing.. the face, teh body (and OMG what a body ;) ) AND the person... teh reason i love jake n not edward is coz he's a real friend.. he's a supernatural being and yet he's not afraid to show his weakness... and he's always there for bella.. he doesnt try to control her or push her teh way edward does.. he accepts HER and is brave enough to put his own self on teh line.. unlike edward who just tries to 'protect' bella instead of letting her be herself...
 i remember this sentence from Eclipse... jacob asks bella if she wanted to have fun with him... and then he says.. "let me guess. youre not allowed to have fun are you?"

but... i digress...
so... coming back to teh point..

who'se better looking???? Jacob or Edward????
or to give the boys some credit... Taylor Lautner or Robert Pattinson???

may angels lead you there

"you know you're gonna have to let go of his memories annie.. he's been gone for a long time now.." her sad smile had taken a turn towards pity by the time she got to the end of her sentence..

i knew she meant well... intellectually.. i KNEW he was gone... i had seen him collapse on that crowded road.. prayed fervently through the mad dash across the city... heard the words that made it final.. and yet.. i still waited for his return.. our room was the same as he had liked it.. his shirts still hung neatly in the cupboard.. i still looked up at the sound of a bike pulling up.. still searched for his face in a crowd... and lived with the hope of a miracle...

"don't cry annie.. i know how much you loved him.. how much you wish that day never happened.. but it did sweetheart.. you have to let go sometime.." i just looked away from her.. refusing to listen..

she have me a hug and walked out of the house.. i sank back down onto the bed and held on to the pillow that somehow still bore the scent of his skin.. stared at our picture on the wall as the light slowly faded from the window...

and woke to the feel of his arms around my body.. his breath on my hair.. his lips on my skin...
"hi..." i smiled at him.. "what took you so long..??"
"just.. got lost in the dark"

Untitled...

Anticipation sent a shiver trough my body as another red circle joined the others around my wrist… they now went halfway up my arm.. The dark red in sharp contrast with the white… the red sparkled.. the white subdued..


how many over the ages had looked down to this sight and known that life as they knew it was gone???

I could hear what seemed like a hundred voices outside my closed door… talking, laughing... celebrating… I still wasn’t sure if it was happiness or sadness that enveloped me… the anticipation was turning into something sharp… I couldn’t identify if it was pain or pleasure…

I hoped no one would come inside.. but then maybe someone would…. I didn't think I was ready to face the exclamations, the advice, the comments.. but the attention might be nice…

I took another look through the mirror at the room behind me.. awash in colour, clothes and knickknacks.. I wanted to remember this.. keep it safe in my memory no matter where I went next…

The mirror showed a girl who looked nervous and scared.. quite unlike the confident woman I had wanted desperately to be..

I looked down at my arm again… the glittering circles seemed to shimmer brighter in the tear- induced haze.. seemed to grow bigger… I sighed and closed my eyes.. leaned back in my chair and positioned my arm carefully over the box by my side..

listening to the distant drumbeat of the dripping drops..

I hope it fills up neatly and doesn’t spill over… don’t want anyone to have to clean up too many bloodstains…

plzz excuse... exams chal rahe hain...

You know you’ve been studying a tad too much when a conversation between friends about boyfriends turns into a discussion on void contracts and fundamental rights….


This conversation happened between Rave, a dear friend from law fac (obviously) and me just today… couldn’t help sharing it..

R: so… how is your bf??

Me: bf? I don’t have one dude..

R: ohho… that ex of yours.. I know you were talking to him..

M: so what.. I can talk to him if I want.. just coz we’re not dating doesn’t mean we’re not friends..

R: tell you what.. I’m making you an offer right now.. I’ll give you 20 bucks for each day if you don’t talk to him for a month..

M: hey… I don’t accept the offer dude.. in any case.. its not an agreement.... that’s void ab initio..

R: why would it be?? It’s a valid offer.. it even has consideration.. 20 bucks a day..

M: no.. its an agreement in restriction of my fundamental rights.. you cannot sign away fundamental rights bro… not only is the agreement void ab initio.. you can get thrown behind bars for violating my fundamental rights of speech and association.

R: no I wont be.. it is for your welfare.. thats allowed.. it is possible to put a reasonable restriction on fundamental rights.. even th judge will uphold that one..

M: yeah sure.. if you’re the legislature you can make such a law.. IF you can justify the restriction.. yahan there’s no justification..

R: sure there is… customary law… remember.. you DON’T talk to ex boyfriends.. thats customary law..

M: customary law is invalid if it is violative of fundamental rights or of any legislation in force or is unreasonable… KAL ILS ka paper diya hai remember…

R: you’re crazy u know that

M: yeah I know.. but I also know this stuff better than you do,… so don’t argue law with me…

blood sugar sex magic

It was rather silly as conversations go… but it threw up a certain point that left me wondering…


Last night I had a conversation with an old friend whose been acting a little weird for a while… I was getting worried bout the mental condition of said friend who, although has been declared certifiably insane by my opinion a number of times... had lately been behaving in a manner that made me wonder if a trip to the much abused hospital in shahadara was actually required..



Well… after a lot of cajoling and “you know I won’t judge you”ing on my part the truth was revealed… what my friend was suffering from was, put plainly a bad case of sexual frustration… to put it in an even plainer manner… sheer frustration at the lack of a sex life..



Predictably, my reaction to that little revelation was a rather loud giggle… and a “oh my god you did not just say that…”

Then I stopped laughing... and started thinking..



Does the “lack thereof” really affect your mood and behaviour?????



Do men and women react differently to this deprivation? Coz this friend is a guy.. and I don’t agree with his hypothesis that the “lack” and the resulting frustration gets you down..



I mean… sure… lack of physical activity and excitement can very well get your dopamine levels down and get you feeling low… but downright depressed???????



Or is it not just the sex but all the attendant romance and relationship.. or the lack thereof that really gets you down?



I mean… in most bio books.. air, water and food are accompanied by sex in the “Must Get to Survive” list…