taylor swift- white horse

say you're sorry
that face of an angel
comes out just when you need it to
As i paced back and forth all this time
cause i honestly believed in you
holding on
the days drag on
stupid girl
i should have known, i should have known

that i'm not a princess, this aint a small town
i'm not theone you'll sweep off her feet.
lead her up the stairwell
This ain't hollywood, this is a small town
i was a dreamer before you went and let me down
now its too late for you
and your white horse to come around

maybe i was naive
got lost in your eyes
and never really had a chance
my mistake,
i didnt know to be in love you had to fight to have the upper hand
i had so many dreams about you and me
happy endings
now i know

I'm not a princess, this ain't a fairytale
i'm not the one you'll sweep off her feet
lead her up the stairwell
this aint hollywood this is a small town
i was a dreamer before you went and let me down
now its too late for you and your white horse to come around

and there you are on your knees
begging for forgiveness, begging for me
just like i always wanted but i'm soo sorry

cause i'm not your princess, this ain't a fairytale
i'm gonna find someone someday who might actually treat me well
this is a big world, that was a small town
there in my rearview mirror disappearing now
and its too late for you and your white horse
now its too late for you and your white horse, to catch me now.....

WAY BACK INTO LOVE- Music & Lyrics

I've been living with a shadow overhead
i've been sleeping with a cloud above my bed
i've been lonely for so long
trapped in the past i just can't seem to move on..

i've been hiding all my hopes and dreams away
just incase i ever need 'em again some day
I've been setting aside time
to clear a little space in the corners of my mind

All I wanna do is find a way back into love
I can't make it through without a way back into love

I've been watching but te stars refuse to shine
i've been searching but i just dont see the signs
i know that its out there
there's gotta be something for my soul somewhere

i've ben looking for someone to shed some light
not somebody just to get me through the night
i could use some directions
and i'm open to your suggestions

all i wanna do is find a way back into love
i cant make it through without a way back into love
and if i open my heart again
i guess i'm hoping you'll be there for me in the end

there are moments when i dont know if its real
or if anybody feels the way i feel
i need inspiration
not just another negotiation

i know its probably the soppiest movie that i've seen in a while.. but there's sopmething amazing bout the way this love story develops... Music & lyrics.. its bout how two people can help each other out of their shells, how they can make the other person believe in him/her self again.. how tehy can fill the spaces in each others lives...
and most of all.. its about recognising where your strengths and failings are and how the otehr person can help you through the tough times..

and how you need to show someone that you really care about them.. specially when they feel let down...
sometimes you just put yourself on the line.. if only to show the other person that you want them to know what they mean to you...

brats and the big sis...

a sedentary life would never fit me.. that i always knew.. the last month, particularly the last 2 weeks have REALLY brought home the fact..
Ive been largely immobile.. thanks to a rather silly accident in the kitchen.. that is reason enough for major bouts of frustration since it takes me about a minute to so much as walk from my room to the drawing room. and the brats are having a blast at my expense.. their entertainment is getting on my nerves, now that i cant run after them to beat em black n blue..
they are growing taller.. and stronger.. though i do think that i'm gonna try to convince ma to get them horlicks so they can also become sharper... sharp enough to realise that once i get better.. they'd better watch out...
sigh.. younger siblings are such a pain...

on a happier note.. classes at law fac will start from tuesday and so i shall have an ironclad reason to leave the house.. bandages be damned...

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high point of today:

the brats spent nearly a half hour chanting"no chicken" while simulating a hawaiian hula dance... all because i wanted butterchicken for dinner and they decided to refuse anything i wanted to eat....

cant wait for them to hit puberty.. hopefully they'll sober down then...

to sir

ladies and gentlemen, I propose a toast.
in memory of Dr. Anil Wilson. former Principal, St. Stephen's College.
The man who really made a whole generation of students feel at home as they struggled to find a toehold in the traditions of Stephania.
from the loooong stories in the morning assemblies to greeting students by name in main corr.

That long twisted tale of the Hare and the Tortoise shall always be remembered.

may god give you peace and embrace you in his love.

Dr. Wilson passed away this morning at 11 am. the funeral service is at St. James Church, Kashmere Gate at 5 p.m. today. Burial will be at Nichoson Cemetery after the service.

more than words

i've been trying to explain to someone that simply telling the person you love that you love them isn't always enough... specially after things have been messed up bad and there is major need of reassurance... words are definitely not enough... neither is giving up. backing off to give someone time to cool off works on someone who WANTS to cool off... otherwise, it just makes a person feel abandoned. like all that they said about needing to FEEL loved just went through one ear and out the other..
there's the little thngs that can cause huge hurts.. making a joke when the other person is pouring their heart out.. not doing things that u say you would... taking them for granted.. because you know they love you... everyone needs pampering and attention once in a while.. specially after a heavy blow.. not just a litany of "i love you" s that begins to sound like standard greeting after so many years pass..
there's as limit to love... even rhett left scarlett when it got unbearable..

MORE THAN WORDS- EXTREME
Saying I love you
Is not the words I want to hear from you
Its not that I want you
Not to say, but if you only knew
How easy it would be to show me how you feel
More than words
is all you have to do to make it real
Then you wouldnt have to say that you love me
Cos Id already know

What would you do if my heart was torn in two
More than words to show you feel
That your love for me is real
What would you say
if I took those words away
Then you couldnt make things new
Just by saying I love you
More than words

Now Ive tried to talk to you
and make you understand
All you have to do is close your eyes
And just reach out your hands
and touch me
Hold me close dont ever let me go
More than words is all I ever needed you to show
Then you wouldnt have to say that you love me
Cos Id already know

What would you do if my heart was torn in two
More than words to show you feel
That your love for me is real
What would you say if I took those words away
Then you couldnt make things new
Just by saying I love you

clutter

sometimes you wonder if your decisions, your choices are really the right ones.. are u hoding on to something just because u're used to it being around.. however tattered. however broken..

baggage..
physical, spiritual, emotional..
things that weigh you down, make you wonder if you really are what you thought u were...

i read a blogpost sometime back.. either by roop or chandni.. i'm so sorry i've forgotten who it was... about a husband who cheated on his wife when drunk.. n it wasnt so much the sex that destroyed it but the fact that he snuggled up to the other woman n held her hand as they slept...
comfort.. the ease with which he spent the night with someone else is what destroyed them...

there's so much that has hurt.. there's so much i've shrugged off...
what happpens now??