death of an idyll...

Daneil Radcliff's interview on tonight's show with Jay Leno last night..................
GOD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! can someone teach that boy to speak anbd sit straight and NOT look like a total geek???
i loved him as Harry Potter.. n he was SO perfect for it... but last night was just... eeerrgghh..

sure he's only 18.. but hasn't he done enough interviews to know what to wear n how to talk?? he was stuttering ands fumbling and wearing this weird formal suit which did NOT suit him at all... he looked waaay better in the pix taken on the hollywood walk of famme as all 3 stars -Daniel, Rupert Grint and Emma Watson got their handprints saved on a concrete bolck..
black looks soooo good on him... wouldn't swati agree?

to someone who asked why i feel blue..

have been in a slightly bummed out mood lately.. though i cant really put my finger to precisely what in all the mad events of my life has me feel so down..

sometimes it just happens that things accumulate in your heart n the ache suddenly becomes too much to bear.. an argument here, a bad day there, a little serious talk that somehow makes u feel like ure at the edge of a cliff.. an a little bit of lonliness.. and there u have the recipie for a major attack of the blues..

but this song is for someone who has been trying to still the ache in my heart.. n has been doing it since we first met.. to my angel...

most of the problems in this world are coz we dont have enough time for ourselves..


INXS LYRICS

"Not Enough Time"
And I was lost for words
In your arms
Attempting to make sense
Of my aching heart
If I could just be
Everything and everyone to you
This life would just be so easy

Not enough time for all
That I want for you
Not enough time for every kiss

And every touch and all the nights
I wanna be inside you
We will make time stop
For the two of us
Make time stop
And listen for our sighs

Not enough time for all
That I want for you
Not enough time for every kiss
And every touch and all the nights
I wanna be inside you

In our fight against the end
Making love we are immortal
We are the last two left on earth
And I was lost for words
In your arms
Attempting to make sense
of My aching heart
If I could just be everything
and everyone to you
Not enough time for all
That I want for you
Not enough time for every kiss
Not enough time for all my love
Not enough time for every touch

i know that it has been a while
but every time i see you smile
still feels like the first time.

and every look from your eyes to mine
it still sends shivers down my spine
just like the first time.

days or months or years may pass
draining the sands of the hourglass
but the stranger in your looking glass
shall be my love forever.
and though it seems so far away
i swear that i am here to stay
that fateful kiss we'll have someday
will feel like the first time.
the stolen kisses in forbidden lands
and everytime that we hold hands
feels like the first time

your vaguely gazing into space
your warm breath upon my face
still feels like the first time.

these dreams you hold inside your heart
shall come to pass, just play your part
wish i could say i knew from the start
we'd last forever.
its hard sometimes, dont give up the fight
how could it be wrong if it feels so right
still dream about us every night
just like the first time.



this again is something ankit wrote for me..

started one morning.. black paper on window frames
formal introductions, exchanging names...
she turned to me and said.. i do believe i can fly
and i knew she could coz i saw it in her eyes..

i donno why i'm writing what i am... 18 months is a long time for a college time relationship to last.... n its already been 6 months since this poem was written for me as an anniversary present..

wierd how sometimes when u dont think anything good could ever come your way... life gives u a blessing that u wouldnt have believed possible...

i wish could write the way he does... just so i could tell him what he means to me...

i've got a camera of my own!!!!

i cant seem to keep myself from taking random pictures all the time now... have a look at the stuff i've done...

all of me...

you used to captivate me
by your resonating mind
now i'm bounded by the life
u left behind..
your face it haunts
my once pleasant dreams
your voice it chased away..
all of the sanity in me
these wounds wont seem to heal
this pain is just too real
there's just so much that time cannot erase................................


why is it that something can touch u so deeply that the imprint never goes away???????
i wish i knew.. i wish i could deal with so many wishes that crop up sometimes...
i wrote this poem in about 3 mins.. just coz a moment in time refuses to be lost in the shifting sands.....................

Silence

Eyes meet
lashes tremble
a thousand things at once
questions, answers, thoughts, betrayals
waiting
for an outlet....

throats tighten
lips stay numb
a raging torrent of emotions
a deafening silence.

Bodies stiffen
souls aflutter..
a lifetime passes in a moment
breath hangs motionless.....

a swirling vortex
a deafening silence.