started one morning.. black paper on window frames
formal introductions, exchanging names...
she turned to me and said.. i do believe i can fly
and i knew she could coz i saw it in her eyes..

i donno why i'm writing what i am... 18 months is a long time for a college time relationship to last.... n its already been 6 months since this poem was written for me as an anniversary present..

wierd how sometimes when u dont think anything good could ever come your way... life gives u a blessing that u wouldnt have believed possible...

i wish could write the way he does... just so i could tell him what he means to me...

i've got a camera of my own!!!!

i cant seem to keep myself from taking random pictures all the time now... have a look at the stuff i've done...

all of me...

you used to captivate me
by your resonating mind
now i'm bounded by the life
u left behind..
your face it haunts
my once pleasant dreams
your voice it chased away..
all of the sanity in me
these wounds wont seem to heal
this pain is just too real
there's just so much that time cannot erase................................


why is it that something can touch u so deeply that the imprint never goes away???????
i wish i knew.. i wish i could deal with so many wishes that crop up sometimes...
i wrote this poem in about 3 mins.. just coz a moment in time refuses to be lost in the shifting sands.....................

Silence

Eyes meet
lashes tremble
a thousand things at once
questions, answers, thoughts, betrayals
waiting
for an outlet....

throats tighten
lips stay numb
a raging torrent of emotions
a deafening silence.

Bodies stiffen
souls aflutter..
a lifetime passes in a moment
breath hangs motionless.....

a swirling vortex
a deafening silence.

looooooooooooong interval...

feels so good to let something outta ur system when uve been suppressing it for a long time... there were things that upset me.. but i never spoke them coz of this mental censor which told me i was being stupid n goin to jeopardise what i have....
i llearnt today that i can expect the same as i give to ppl.. i want to be told the exact truth.. to not be kept in the dark bout what's bothering the ppl i love... how silly of me not to think they'd want the same...
thank u angel.. for being by my side....

a chance meeting........

this post is specially to thank someone i've met only once in my life... we met online, talked bout a lot of things.... n met once... just a few days ago.... i have to thank u... coz unknowingly u showed me another side to myself....
i was never gutsy enough to just start talking to someone i didnt know.... u changed that.... it was fun, talking bout ppl we both know n things that we think of....i wasnt ever so free n open with anyone, not anyone i had just met... it was nice to be able to just have a good time without qualms or considerations. n thanks for ur help with my work....
hope we continue to stay in touch

wrote this long ago.... dont quite know why....

a core of pain inside me
an inexplicable sadness
nameless, numerous thoughts crowd my mind
bind
memories of pain n sorrow to my heart
make me fear
cry
dont know what or why
life seems unneeded
a sudden desire to die..
to fly
far away from the maddening crowd

a whirlpool of sounds, shapes
sigths, lights, voices
assaulting by senses
trapped in a vortex of black emotions
an emptiness inside me
a space that throbs with invisible emotions
bringing me to my knees with hurtthat clouds my mind n dulls my senses..

i hear childish voices risen in quarrel
the clink of utensils, mother in her kitchen
the rustles and roars of life outside my window
still.... a void inside
that spews out emotions
words pour out
to assuage a grief...
why do i feel it???
for thoughts that surface
then dive again
wishes that come to heart but remain unprayed for......