Friday, December 31, 2010

goodbye decade....

i remember being almost 13 years old and being spooked by the whole Y2K bug rumour.. i remember pressing my nose against the window and looking out as the fireworks celebrated the start of a new millenium..
i can feel the years fold back as i reminisce right now.. i don't even know why i am writing an 'end of the year' kind of blogpost.. but my fingers are dancing around the keyboard and i can hardly stop the process once it begins....
so here's to a farewell to teenage, college, to the beginning of growing up..
to a decade full of experiences who have now made me the woman who will live the next few decades of my life..
to love and laughter and friends.. to tears and bruises and dusting off the mud and getting up again..
to the decade thats gone by and to what i hope will be a new phase of life..

farewell 2010..

and i wish a great new year to everyone!

Friday, December 24, 2010

broken wings

It is for you my love, its all for you..

the blood of my soul
 That spreads from me to you
The pieces of my heart scattered around the courtyard
As I lie dying crushed beneath your love
Its all for you.. only for you…
…………..
It just came to me
Like the remnants of a dream
As I lazed in that half aleep, not quite awake state
Just what is not no matter how much I may want it to be
A brush, dusted off and starting with a clean slate…

Tuesday, December 21, 2010

its been FIVE years!!!!!!!

I just realised that December 2010 implies that I've been blogging for FIVE YEARS!!!!!
wow.. 

thank you. all those who read my blog and all those who give me reasons to write it (yes even the sad ones) 



                                        I started the blog on 19 December 2005!!!!!
 with this.
and from those silly days of a bored teenager's outpourings.. well.. i still do sound like that sometimes..
thank you for reading and commenting.. and sharing..and not pointing out the hundreds of spelling mistakes that i don't bother to run a mental or computer generated spell- check on!

:)

ostrich feathers

why is it so hard for people to just TALK? does keeping something locked in help anyone? if u not mention it and don't give it conscious thought its not like it goes away.... its just that you bury your head in the sand and can't see whats coming at you..

what do you do when someone you love refuses to accept reality and clings to blind hope? refuses to see whats there just because its not what they want.. because accepting whats there is too painful...

wouldn't the pain go away if you just confront the situation instead of running from it???????

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i don' t suppose this is precisely the song for the moment but i like it  anyway..


In Too Deep- Sum41




The faster we're falling, 
We're stopping and stalling.
We're running in circles again
Just as things we're looking up
You said it wasn't good enough.
But still we're trying one more time.

Maybe we're just trying to hard. 
When really it's closer than it is too far

Cause I'm in too deep, and I'm trying to keep, 
All the thoughts in my head, instead of going under.
Cause I'm in too deep, and I'm trying to keep, 
All the thoughts in my head, instead of going under.
Instead of going under.

Seems like each time 
I'm with you I loose my mind,
Because I'm bending over backwards to relate.
It's one thing to complain 
But when you're driving me insane
Well then I think it's time that we took a break.

Maybe we're just trying to hard. 
When really it's closer than it is too far

Cause I'm in too deep, and I'm trying to keep, 
All the thoughts in my head, instead of going under.
Cause I'm in too deep, and I'm trying to keep, 
All the thoughts in my head, instead of going under.
Instead of going under.
Instead of going under.

I can't sit back and wonder why.
It took so long for this to die.
And I hate it when you fake it.
You can't hide it you might as well embrace it.
So believe me it's not easy.
It seems that something's telling m
e,

I'm in too deep, and I'm trying to keep, 
All the thoughts in my head, instead of going under.
Cause I'm in too deep, and I'm trying to keep, 
All the thoughts in my head, instead of going under.
Instead of going under.
instead of going under.

instead of going under again.
instead of going under.
instead of going under again.
instead of going under again.

Thursday, December 09, 2010

hey bhagwan utha le!!!

mujhe nahi... ISE utha le :)


So what do you do when a six foot tall strapping young lad gleefully tells you how he can now easily benchpress your weight? You applaud with pride J

And what do you do when that same young lad follows up the description of his gymming with the news that he recently went off to get a manicure, and pedicure, ending with clear nail polish on his prettified nails?

You laugh and you laugh and then you blog about it :D

And NO this guy is not gay or in any way effeminate…

except for the girly giggle in his voice when he tells you
“the nice lady in the salon told me that I have really pretty delicate hands!!!!!!”

:D Handing me ammo I say!!!!!! :D


DISCLAIMER: i have NOTHING against people who love makeup or guys who are into it.. I am not some sexist B#$%# who would downgrade a guy for wanting to look good. I'm also not a closet homophobe. its just that THIS guy, (and i how i regret swearing that i wouldn't reveal his identity) and nailpolish, are too incongruent for me to let it pass without public comment..