Friday, January 13, 2006

ooooohhhhkkkk......

so the jan tests rnt quite wat i thought they'd be.. nah.. im not complainin.. ive had 2 so far.. EI n AIH...AIH was 2day actually.. theyre in a way much easier than i thought they'd be.. though i THINK i messed up a coupla questions... hehehehehe well... watever.. its all okay...
so i have SoFo on 17th.. n then english on 19th.. n then.... IM FREE till the finals in march-april anyway...
well.... wat else.. its really gettting cold here.. who'd have thought that delhi would be getting tempratures as low as 0.2C...!!! god! thats wat happened a coupla days ago... n its supposed to go down again tonight..brrrrrrr.... feeling the cold wind on my face wen im all bundled up is good.. but watll happen to all those ppl who're sleeping on th roads n dont have warm clothes to cover themselves??? its bad enuf even wen im inside the house.........

Tuesday, January 03, 2006

aisa kyun hota hai?

sumtimes wen ure sitting alone... or even in the midst of a crowd.. u feel totally alone.. lonely.. just a wierd attack of the blues... why??? i dont know... happened to me a coupla days ago... i was sitting on the terrace of my building... n suddenly i start crying... it was new yr's eve, n i guess i was sad coz i couldnt spend it with my boyfriend... but the way i felt all cast off n totally alone... it scared me.. i was almost like DESPEREATELY tryin to call my best frenz n my boyfriend frm my cellphone.. but for a long time no one picked up their phones.... n im goin on n on sobbing for no reason that i could fathom.....then my boyfriend called n i started off again.... scared him half to death actually... he was all ready to come over to see me right then...but i said im okay... i did get alright in a few minutes... why is it that smtimes u just need to have a good cry to chase away all blues???? then one of my frenz also called back... even he got scared coz i felt so damned depressed n was crying like a baby..
but then i got okay again... actually i felt almost angry at myself for falling apart like that.. without any real reason..
but then i went for a family dinner n had a lot of fun with my cousins n aunts n uncles all around.. so its all good..
but im still kinda surprised at myself... i NEVER lose control like that... rarely ever.. the amount of sadness n pain almost that ifelt really scared me....
why did it happen??? god knows.

Sunday, January 01, 2006

a new day... new year

2006 HAS BEGUN!!!!
happy new year to all those kind souls who bother to actually come read these random rumblings of a 17 yr old...
but not for long... 17 i mean... my 18th birthday is 24th march 2006..legally ill be an adult.. with a right to vote, freedom to drive a car or bike or watever automobile i wish to drive... after learning n getting a licence ofcourse.... so .. ADULTHOOD.. HERE I COME!